Sneak Peek Sunday


Sneak Peak Sunday is a little series I’m starting where I let you into the real deal, what life is actually like right in this moment. In my home, in my heart, in my neighborhood, in this city, wherever I am at, whatever I am thinking…this is what it is. Yikes!
Or not so yikes because if you read this little blog, you know the real deal me and you already have not just a sneak peek, but a huge glimpse into my heart.
Nonetheless, Sneak Peek Sunday is another way I let my guard down, no walls up, and let you into our little world here in Chicago. My prayer is that you enjoy it, laugh a lot, and are reminded that it’s okay to be human and not have it all together sometimes.
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Today was one of those days where sleep felt so good, so we woke up kind of late and did just what was necessary to get to church somewhat on time.
– Quick showers {which we call taking a birdbath}
– Minimal makeup
– Pop the wrinkly jeans {that have been sitting in a pile in our room for days} in the dryer for 10 minutes while we put on a pot of coffee.
– PK warmed up left over pancakes that we ate on the way
– I put lipstick on in hopes that people notice that before they noticed my non-shaved armpits if I accidentally lifted up my arms.
…And so the story goes.
We made it to church in enough time, but you know when the Konickis are sitting in the balcony that we were a liiiitle later than usual.
I promised myself that right after church I would go home and clean our house because it is a disaster. I took pictures because some of our dear friends have said they’ve never seen our place messy. Which is funny to me because they are our people and we’re to that level where I know they love us even in our mess. {Literally and figuratively} And I know our place has been a sty when they’ve come over before. All this to say, here it is. The literal mess, as we’ve left it for the past three days. May these pictures be ones that make you feel normal. Or maybe they’ll make you feel better about yourself. In all of this I gotta remember one thing:
A wise man once said, “only God can judge me.” {Thank you Tupac}
{close up with drawers open and all}
Let me rewind for a second to the last song we sang in church. It really struck a chord in my heart this morning. It was one of those older songs that was hip back in college but you haven’t heard for like three years, then all of a sudden you sing it and hear the words in a different season of life, with a different shaped mind and heart and it’s like the song is new again.
I left church knowing that I had to write about it.
I had to leave the mess for a little while longer and reflect on how and why this song made my heart skip a beat.
The song is called “All Because of Jesus” and the chorus goes like this:
It’s all because of Jesus I’m alive
It’s all because the blood of Jesus Christ
That covered me and raised this dead man’s life
It’s all because of Jesus I’m alive
I thought to myself, yes this is it. My soul is set free, my life is new, my sin is something I don’t have to feel guilt over anymore, because of Jesus. Because He died for me. For you. My soul is alive like never before ever since I placed my faith in God when I was 15 and today was a reminder of that. A sweet reminder that God loves me and there is so much for my heart to sing about, to rejoice over, to praise Him for. Yes, this life here on earth is not promised to be one of ease and free of pain, but my friends, God offers a hope that no one or anything else can offer. He offers a relationship with Him, hope in Him and what He has planned for my life. For your life. My weary soul can rest in the promise that He has my heart in His hands and walks with me every single step of the way.
My soul was revived today.
My heart didn’t need to clean the second I got home, what my heart needed was Jesus.
I was reminded that the everyday tasks will always be there, but there is something so sweet about taking time out to be with God. To think about Him. To be reminded of His goodness. Perhaps that’s my challenge to you today. Grab a cup of coffee and take a walk. Put down the dirty dishes and snuggle up on the couch. Let go for a second, breathe, and just be. Be with God. Let your soul be filled with thoughts of Him and His goodness today.
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Eddy’s birth story


Hooray hooray Edward John Konicki is in the world!
And boy is it a sweeter world with him in it. Oh you guys, he is the best. His chubby little cheeks and his long frog legs. Every single thing about him makes me in awe of God, thankful that we get to call Eddy ours.
Today I want to share with you his birth story. Every single minute of this story is so worth it. I mean, c’mon, look at that face. I just want to kiss it a hundred times over. And I do. And I love it.
So it all started on August 21, 2014 at 1:30 in the morning. I got up to use the washroom for the hundredth time that night and my water broke. Finally!! We were going on the 6th day being past due, nothing was really comfortable anymore, and I was wondering if I would ever see my ankles again. I remember Victoria, our doula, saying that it will be really important to rest as much as I could when things started, so I went back to bed and just lay there. Praying, not really sleeping, but trying my best to rest my body. My water breaking wasn’t some big gush you see in the movies. It was little by little. So, a couple hours after it broke I noticed there was his meconium (baby’s first poop) in the water which is concerning which lead us to call the midwife which lead us to go the hospital. We were hoping to labor at home longer, but we wanted to make sure Eddy was a-ok. We then ate a good breakfast, I drank a whole thing of gatorade, and off we went.
When we got to the hospital at 7am we checked in, found out that Eddy was doing awesome, but they wanted to keep him monitored so for the next 12 hours we walked and walked and rested and rested and that’s when our midwife suggested we up the ante with the dreaded Pitocin. We spent time asking question after question, praying, talking to the nurses about it (I learned that one of my nurses had all three of her kids non medicated so we felt like we could trust what she was saying as she helped us process). We decided to do it. The meconium was still present and even though he was stable, he needed to get outta there.
At about 9pm it started gettin’ real. My body wasn’t messing around and all hands were needed on deck during EVERY contraction. Victoria putting counter-pressure on my back and doing her doula thing, while PK was at my face praying with me, praying for me, and helping me to concentrate on my breathing and incredibly loud moaning. Side note: You guys, sounds came out of my mouth that I didn’t know existed. Moans and growls that were not dainty nor quiet. During active labor I labored everywhere. In a bathtub for a couple hours, on the toilet, squatting, on my hands and knees on the bed, on my knees hugging the back of the bed, on my right side, on my left side. Upside down. Just kidding on that one. Wanted to make sure you were still paying attention. While we’re distracted…
Then the time came to push. And push I did. FOR THREE HOURS. Lord have mercy. Worst pain ever, you ask? Why yes. And defining it by “worst pain ever” is an understatement. My contractions weren’t close enough so I would push and he would then decide to stay back for a bit. So it was one step forward and two steps back for a LONG time. I was so exhausted. PK kept praying strength over me and it was by God’s strength (and how he used everyone involved) that I got through this. So then our midwife got her gown on which indicated Eddy was coming soon. They then wheeled out a mirror and I never thought I’d be one of those people to watch the birth of my baby. But it was SO empowering. I remember the midwife saying at one point “Christine, wake up, (I fell dead asleep in the middle of pushing. Isn’t that wild?!) lift up your head and look at your baby.” I could see his head and that’s all I needed to be able to push one last time and meet him.
He was finally born! 8:07 am on August 22, 2014. 8 lbs 1oz. 21 in. long. They placed him on my chest  and I’d like to tell you I bawled my eyes out, but I was too tired. I prayed and I thanked God for this sweet boy. I remember telling God “he is YOURS Lord” and thanking Him that we get to be Eddy’s parents. You guys, he was so cute right out of the womb. He was so alert and wide eyed and his cry was the best thing ever. There was so much going on after that. It was placenta time, so there was that, then all of a sudden I was feeding him thanks to Victoria. Thank God for her because I was so tired I couldn’t do anything for myself. He latched like a boss and I am SO grateful for that and don’t take that for granted for one minute. Our parents then came to see him and the rest is history.
It all was unreal. Crazy unreal.
And then there’s this man. My amazing, strong, faith-filled husband who was with me during EVERY contraction. 31 hours of contractions, by my side praying with me, coaching me, making sure I was breathing and staying hydrated. In the tub with me, face to face with me. Looking me in the eyes and telling me I could do it when I thought I had absolutely nothing left in me. My gosh I love you, PK. We did it and I could not have done any of this without you. My love for you has grown in such an intense way after experiencing what we did to bring Eddy into the world, and there’s no going back to the way it was. You are an incredible man, and I am the luckiest.
So there you have it. The remarkable story of Edward the Brave.
Thank you Lord for the sweetest boy a girl could ask for.
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